Closure

Haven't posted anything here in a long while because I've been so so so busy but it's holidays now and I have a little more spare time on my hands before starting on my report for FYP. So, how's life?

These past few weeks and months have been a blur, I've quit my waitressing job @ Sushi Tei of 2 years, switched lines to being a clinical assistant and a door girl/bitch as well. I don't think I'm doing a particularly good job at being a bitch though, or maybe that's just my own opinion. I'm too huddled up in still thinking that having good service is very important in whatever line I'm in but I guess in the nightlife it isn't as much.

It's December 16th now, just a mere 15 days to the Eve of the New Year. The day when 2013 ends. When everything that has happened for the past year will pass by like it was nothing; like how the past 19 years of my life has passed. When the clock strikes 12, everyone will hug and exchange kisses for the upcoming year. When fireworks will grace the sky in the central district and everyone will crowd for the lights as it has been; like a ritual every year.

As the year is ending, I've been looking back on the past year and the experiences I've gone through; probably to where I am right now and no matter what I've went through; no matter how many bad decisions I've made, I'm glad I made them. Without these mistakes, I would never have grown. I would never have known what I really wanted and needed.

Through the year;

1. I've loved.
2. I've hurt.
3. I've tried to recover by loving again, but I failed miserably.
4. I've partied hard.
5. Too hard.
6. I've done way too much for that one guy that I liked.
7. I've been hurt again, for uncertainties.
8. I've partied again.
9. I've got to meet good friends and I went too far with a dare.
10. I've hurt again.
11. I've partied.
12. I've kept my options open.
13. I've been wary of everyone because I've been hurt so many times.
14. I've waited.
15. I've fallen in love.

I'm still in love.

I'm glad to have met you, though the circumstances were never the most apt. We all know what they say about club romances, but I was so happy yet wary when you took the first step and asked me on a date the second time we met each other. And it went well, too well perhaps. That feeling when you don't want the date to end because you have way too many things to talk about to each other, and having so many things that you want to find out about each other. I'm just glad we can be so brutally honest about everything, for your trust in me (with the whole NS thing going on) and the littlest things that you take note of to make me happy all the time. Happy first month, to us. And to the many more months and years to come.

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To a significant someone else, I'm sorry. Sorry for breaking your heart when I shouldn't have, just like you did with mine. Sorry for making you step onto my rack, sorry for making you try for me when I was so sure you wouldn't anymore. Sorry for that dare. Sorry that I crushed on you and tried even though I anticipated rejection; and now I've hurt you instead. Sorry that I was so irrational and acted merely on my emotions. Sorry that I didn't wait for you to come around. I can only hope that we can still be friends; no matter the distance.

This year has been a good one. I've met so many people, made so many more friends, exposed myself and let myself be exposed to so many other things. I've also been able to continue to keep my close friends close. I can't wait for the upcoming year and the surprises that await me :-)

One last lap, come on Carol, you know you can do it! Graduation's in a few months and you just need to keep hitting deadlines this semester to safely scrape through you can do ittttttttttttt

Turning 19

Birthday (crepe) cake from Paris Baguette cuz I'm a fatty like that, thank god it opened at JEM. HAHAHA. 

 With my favourite person in the world, my ahma! 

 With daddy dearest during early bday dinner :-) 

 Just a random shameless self-shot of myself HAHAHA

 One of my favourite zhabors, my BFF of 7 years <3

 Uncle Ernie whom I haven't seen in like a thousand years...... thank you for your sweet floral notebook!!! :-) Uncle knows best! 

Daddy no. 2 who sure knows how to make an entrance..
COME SO LATE SOMEMORE!?!?!?! HAHAHAHA. 

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No special big celebration on the day itself and all these were pre-19, mostly from the 1st of Nov and the 2nd but I had a gr8 time. Didn't need lavish gifts from my friends because to me rn, I think it's the thought that counts the most. Like Feli whom surprised me with the TheoryOfSeven romper that I was eyeing on for the longest time, Uncle Ernie with his floral notebook (because he knows that I love floral-printed things in general), Liquan with his boxing pad (cz I was just telling him how much I miss going for muay thai lessons), Wifey who spent time with me on a lovely Sat afternoon bringing me to a really gorgeous cafe and some shopping in town, Lion Ernie bringing me around for food that I have craved for so long (OMG THE PRAWN MEEEEEE @ KALLANG AHHH) and my fav matcha dessert, dinner and thoughtful bday gifts on the special day itself, last but not least my girls like Durga and Shu Hui and Liqi and many many others such as Julie and Jacinta who took time to dig out a photo of us and write a sweet dedication for me, thank y'all! I've had the best birthday in a while because I just feel so loved on that one special day :') 

The best birthday gift that I've received this year from God are all of you, from knowing you guys' from the start and how much we've progressed as friends :') I feel like I'm so lucky to have met so many good people in this year, from CCA Fair to even clubbing friends like wifey who's been nothing but sweet to me. I may have my heart broken or may have let myself be trampled on a few times, but I feel like I've gained much more. Experience, friends, love. I'm more than contented with how life is treating me now and I finally feel like I'm picking up all the pieces again. 

Can't wait to see you in 2 weeks and tell you how much more I miss you in person xx 

I wish I had more things to update this space but my life is such a bore and I'm just constantly feeling lethargic and drained from work and school :-(

Mandatory self-shot picture as my header for this blog post because I simply do not have anything else to post about... I've been eating a lot lately, gaining quite a bit of weight and so now I'm desperately trying to lose it by doing hardcore cardio every night like how I used to :/

Life's been having it's ups and downs, but I guess through every experience you grow and you know what else you want. Now I just feel like I've been pulled backwards to the days where I used to know nothing, but the difference is that now, I do know what I want. I am certain. But is everyone else, really?
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One of my favourites on my playlist now:

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

“Time goes running out of the window, when it's just those moments. You don't need to know, where you are or where you are going”

- The Paper Kites, “Drifting” 

Starting on this book and I'm halfway through now, a refuge from the monotonous daily life of what we call school.

My daily life now is just:

1. School
2. Work
3. Running/Gym 

I hardly have time to meet my friends anymore except after school/fyp :(
Absolutely can't wait for this to finally end.. 

I was going through my old blog and I found a list of things I'd like to achieve this year, and felt momentarily contented because... 

For one, I managed to clear some of my wardrobe to make space for new clothes.. and I definitely reached 45kg. I even exceeded my own expectations and went to 44kg! But now that I've stopped exercising for a while due to my knee abrasions and badly scraped pinky, I've gained weight back to 45kg++ and it pains me so bad. I so badly want to do what I do best, just running the weight off every single night till I hit the 3km/4km mark where I would finally feel satisfied with myself.. but with the 7th month and my injuries, I'm afraid it'll take a while :( 

Things have changed so much through the past year, and I've realised that no matter how fucked up my life is rn, I am still slightly on track so it isn't too bad I guess. Going to BKK in approx 3 weeks and I absolutely can't wait! I'm so going to exercise intensely the week before so that when I go there I don't feel too guilty just drinking beer with my dad every single night and eating unhealthy fried chicken wings and other yummy street food mmhmm. Going to have to exercise very very intensely the week after as well. So glad that my mom booked a hotel with a really nice pool so I can not only suntan but swim while I'm there to burn the calories! /yay

More posts on this week coming up soon with more photos, hehe. Meanwhile this is a summary of yesterday's dinner date with my mom at Ramen Champion (Bugis+) :) 

And today's dinner hang-out session with Furli, Li Quan and Wei Ming! 

 My favourite Bakmie Ayam... I just hope it wouldn't really generate too much pus on my wounds like how my parents keep warning me :/ 

 Mmmhmm my favourite Rochor Road Tau Huey @ Selegie for dessert! Forgot to take picture of my You Tiao cuz I finished it already. Hehehe. The number 1 way of eating Rochor Road Tau Huey: 

1) Get a tiny piece of you tiao.

2) Dunk it into 豆花 ＋豆花水。烧的会比较好！！！

3) ENJOY. 

Just salivating thinking about it hehe. 

This Liquan enjoying only, 1 guy 3 girls. HAHAHAHA! 

More pictures coming up soon ;) 

Snippets

One of my favourite original artists:

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Just random snippets of my week, or rather the past day..

With my all-time study buddy, good friend and FYP group mate, Li Quan! 

 Met Feli, Brandon and Shang Hao for supper near her place @ The Cheese Prata Shop! :)
Not so yummy Niqqi's special prata... don't try. LOL. 

Dad brought this home from Aussie a week ago, I think. Quite yummy!

But I think it's just cuz I like the rainbow sprinkles inside. Hehehe.

Just random camho shots cuz I like to show off my belly fat. I need to get back into shape after exams! Okay baibai back to my microdevices module lol :( Maybe after Wednesday I'll have smth else to update this space on... going to try Saveur with Feli HEHEH

It's the exam period again...

So it was Rio's 20th birthday celebration last Saturday and we went over to his place to have a really nice dinner/catch-up session with the Alles! Some of the pictures from that night: 

 Nisheta baked Strawberry Shortcake for Rio's Birthday and omfg it's the BEST STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE I'VE EVER HAD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!!! IT IS SO YUMMY. HER CAKES ARE ALWAYS FUCKING GOOD!!!!! She should really open a bakery cuz i'd be her loyal customer... or maybe a cafe where Prabu can cook as well oh my god the food that night was soooooo good... 

 Some shots with my bbygirls teehee:

 Sorry noel you're not a bbygirl ;) 

Durga and I camwhored like crazy I think there were 50 pictures of us in my phone cuz we didn't meet up for that long!!!! HAHAHAHA. <3

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2 weeks ago @ Shokudo (Cine): 

 SUPER DELICIOUS PAN FRIED SALMON AGLIO OLIO SPAGHETTI WITH IKURA IN WAFUU SAUCE!!!!!!!!!!!!! TASTED LIKE HEAVEN OMG CRAVING

 FUCKING BEST SHIT EVER MATCHA BOINGBOING CHEESCAKE!!!! 

Last Tuesday @ Tampopo (Ngee Ann City): 

 I HATE EATING SALADS CUZ IT TASTES LIKE GRASS BUT IT WAS ALRIGHT HAHAHA THE SAUCE WAS YUMZ AND THERE'S SALMON MMHMM 

 MY FAVOURITE BLACK PORK SPICY TONKATSU BASED RAMEN ~_~ 

OMG SUPER YUMZ STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD BUT STILL CANNOT BEAT NISHETA'S HAHAHA BUT IT WAS A CLOSE FIGHT!!! 

Just a weekly food affair with Feli at town cuz we ended school early and I managed to convince her to go and eat fatty and yummy food wimme. HEHEHEHE. ^^

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Last Saturday at Timbre (Substation) with the SST peeps! 

 GOODFELLA'S PIZZA OH MY GOD THIS IS THE SHIT!!!!!!!1 BEATS THE ROASTED DUCK PIZZA HANDS DOWN OMG

 FUCKING YUMMY PORTOBELLO MUSHROOMS!! I'M STARTING TO LIKE MUSHROOMS CUZ OF THIS OMG IT'S SO FRAGRANT AND TASTES LIKE CHICKENNNNN. AND THE MOZARELLA CHEESE JUST OH MY GOD JIZZ

 ROSEMARY FRIES THAT WERE SO-SO :S

 Pic with Jiacheng who was sitting next to me hehehehe bros4lyfe

So after Timbre we headed to Ian's place to watch movies and I fell asleep :S Hehehe left in the morning at 6++ as usual keke. 

Random camwhore pic that I took from Wondercam omg it's damn good dl it girls!! It auto-enhances your pictures! 

So now i'm pretty much sick as hell and I've been resting at home since Fri till now (except for Sat) and I still feel like crap i don't know when the hell i will recover from this flu/cough/fever shit T_T feels like crap just resting and resting but i can't do anything else cuz i don't have the energy to :(

And can you guys please please please pretty pleaseeeeeee do this survey for me?? It's for my fyp!! It'll only take about 3 minutes! & it's about skincare :) Click here, thank you guys love y'all!!!!

xx gute nacht

Fav Products + Make Up Routine

Just a recommendation on some of the make-up products that I've been using since I don't use much skincare products other than Japanese moisturizers!

My favourite face products that I don't use often but really really love. I'm not a fan of face make-up but these feel really light on the skin! I don't really like liquid foundation even though I have a MAC one and I find that it runs much more easily as compared to these two.

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Laura Mercier's Tinted Moisturizer in Sand

Maybelline's Watergel BB Cream in Medium Beige (it's a bit light for my skin now though)

The only loose powder that I use... because the rest simply cannot compare! I got myself Laura Mercier's Translucent Powder with a fan brush but I haven't tried it yet :/

Revlon Colorstay Aqua Loose Powder in Light Medium

And on days/nights where I have to set my face make up, I would use this because it feels a lot more hydrating as compared to normal translucent powders. Bought this at BKK Airport's Duty Free Store!

My favourite under-eye concealer and the only one I've tried so far.. definitely going to stock up on this soon! I've been using it daily because my undereye circles are that bad and they cover them up nicely without fading throughout the day. 

Laura Mercier's Undereye Concealer in No. 3

I usually use a light brown eyebrow pencil followed by eyebrow mascara to further lighten my brows because my hair colour is really light!

Etude House's Eyebrow Pencil in Shade 3

Really good quality for it's price! It was only $5.90 I think?

KATE Eyebrow Mascara (Dark Blonde)

I'm not a fan of powdery eyeshadows because they seem to look cakey so I got myself gel eyeshadows which I've been using as bright eyeliner colours for summer! I use an Ecotool angled eyeliner brush with these and they last all day/night. 

 Maybelline's Colour Tattoo in Edgy Emerald, Turquoise Forever and Bold Gold

Loreal's Super Liner in Black

My next favourite eyeliner next to the K-Palette one because it absolutely does not smudge! I can go to the gym with this and it can still look perfect after an intense 1-hour run. I've tried running outdoors with this as well and it really lasts all day! When it dries, it dries hard so it will not smudge and instead leave dry tiny black flakes which are easily removable as compared to smudges! The only downside is that the tip isn't super precise so if I can't get my wing eyeliner to be sharp enough I'd use my K-Palette pen eyeliner :) 

 K-Palette 24-Hour Eyeliner

Need I say more? Been recommending this since forever... I've been using this for the past 2 years, lol!

Maybelline's 36-Hour Gel Eyeliner in Brown

I've been using this for quite a while and it really lives up to it's name. Only downside is that it smudges a little after 8 hours or so.. other than that it's really good though! It's really creamy, waterproof, and the colour is of a really nice natural brown. I'm sure it can last up to 36 hours but you'll probably have to wipe your under-eye area quite often, haha!

My 2 favourite drug-store mascaras! I don't like to use high-end brands for mascara because they have to be disposed of almost every month or so anyway to prevent eye infections from the mascara brush harboring bacteria! They are really, really good BTW. Comparable to Lancome's Hypnose Drama IMO. 

Maybelline's The Falsies Volum Express

Loreal's Lash Architect 4D

The only 2 blushes I ever use.. I don't use them on a daily basis but only when I apply face make up so it brings some life back into my face, haha! I apply the cream blush first then the powder blush so that the powder blush has something to "hold" on to and will last longer throughout the day :)

SHEENE's Choco Blush. (Bought mine from Clementi's BHG)Smells really good BTW and the texture is smth like a bouncy mousse?

NARS Powder Blush in Deep Throat

Got my 1st NARS blush at BKK's DFS and really like it, haha. It shows up really nicely on my skin! I'm not a fan of blushes but this colour really makes my cheeks look like it has natural glow.

I'm a huge fan of red lipsticks and I have tonnes, but I don't wear them on a daily basis. This is what I wear if I'm heading for a night out or I'm just meeting my friends because this is a lot more wearable with minimal touch-ups! If I were to wear a red lipstick, I would wear it underneath this because it seals the colour in really well. 

Loreal Shine Caresse Lip Tint in Coral Red

That's mostly all I have to share about my favourite make-up products that I've been using for quite a while/recently. 

For my day-to-day make-up for school, I'd use mainly moisturizer, under-eye concealer, eyebrow pencil and brow mascara, liquid eyeliner/gel eyeliner.

For clubbing, I'd use the same routine as I do for school except that I use Maybelline's Colour Tattoo to brighten up my eyes by lining it above my winged eyeliner and sometimes if I manage to remember then I'll use the Lip Tint.

For a girl's day out/date, I'd use moisturizer, Laura Mercier's hydrating primer, tinted moisturizer/bb cream, under-eye concealer, liquid eyeliner, mascara, cream brush, powder blush, lip tint! 

FYI: I have really dry skin that's why most of the products are deeply hydrating! If you have acne-prone skin/oily skin, Laura Mercier has an oil-free range for you ^_^ If you've any questions about any of the products you can leave a comment on my Ask.FM box! I'm an eyeliner junkie so if you know of any really good waterproof eyeliners (preferably drug-store of course because I use it daily and it's expensive if I keep stocking up like crazy) do recommend some to me hehe. I'd love to try Urban Decay's 24/7 though... if it sucks I'm not going to try anymore pencil eyeliners lol!!! It's the best in the market for pencil eyeliners or so I've heard ;)