Friday, September 5, 2014

life sucks when you hit your 20s

Can't believe it's been almost three months since I last posted a post here. Times back then were less hectic, less stressed and much more happier in general. However, even with my hectic schedule I've managed to squeeze in some happy pills these week. Going to meet another one tonight. This week has treated me both well and thrown me off with a terrifying aftermath.

I guess that's what happens when you work too long and you're so used to saving and saving so much that when you start spending you just get thrown off the rails.. leaving me with well, this. This stress. Ever since I've started university, my spending has increased not only because of my transport but my food and everything as well because I hardly eat at home or at my grandma's anymore. I work almost every single day, I either have one job or two jobs in a day rushing from place to place; except for the day that I'm schooling which is currently the entire of Friday from 830AM to 615PM cuz I need the other days for work.

The only thing I'm looking forward to now is money. No matter how tired I am, no matter how much I dread going to work, every single time I think about the end of the month... that's my motivation right there. I'm only 20, 19 in fact; and people say that your last teenage years should be your best, left to enjoy what a teenage life has to offer but no.. in this country you have no life to speak of once you finish your poly education. You're all on your own.

Sometimes I wish I stopped schooling or took up a part-time degree instead and got a full time job because things will be much more stable for me, and I don't have to work or sleep irregular hours anymore. But I know that with a degree I would be able to earn much more and probably have a better chance at getting a job doing something I like. Life sucks when you're working/studying like a dog and all I can think of is how much of my old life I'm missing.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Bored at 4am :-( Thinking whether I should revive this space or just continue updating my Dayre. Loads of people are shifting to Dayre as well because it's so much more convenient!

Sunday, January 26, 2014

And sometimes, little did you know, you actually saved me. Saved me from the darkness I was spiralling into, the endless party lifestyle that I had; you were my anchor and you were and still are; what keeps me grounded. Just as I almost lost myself, I lost myself into you x